What a blessing for the reminder the Lord gave me this morning with waking me up to the song "Already There" by Casting Crowns. These words are ones I need to hear...
From where I'm standing
Lord, it's so hard for me to see
Where this is going
And where You're leading me
I wish I knew how
All my fears and all my questions
Are going to play out
In a world I can't control
When I'm lost in the mystery
To You my future is a memory
‘Cause You're already there
You're already there
Standing at the end of my life
Waiting on the other side
And You're already there
You're already there
From where You're standing
Lord, You see a grand design
That You imagined
When You breathed me into life
And all the chaos
Comes together in Your hands
Like a masterpiece
Of Your picture-perfect plan
Yesterday I had one "asking for prayers...God knows the details" to which I responded "You got them...remember God not only knows the details but He also knows the ending..." Those are words I need to say to myself. God not only knows why this MS chaos is going on but most importantly He knows when/how it will end. Will it end with gaining full function of my legs? Will it end with me living the rest of my life on this earth using a walker or a cane? Will it end with me limited to what I can do as a Medical Chaplain? Will it end with my death? I don't have the answers but I do have the answer to this question: Will it end with the Lord being glorified through it all? YES! No doubt that will happen! I am determined to not allow the enemy to take away my joy through this process. I am determined to stand firm in my faith as the Lord guides me through these days. I am determined to win and sing...
One day I'll stand before You
And look back on the life I've lived
‘Cause You're already there
You're already there
When I'm lost in the mystery
To You my future is a memory
‘Cause You're already there
You're already there
Standing at the end of my life
Waiting on the other side
And You're already there
You're already there
Dear Jesus,
I became so frustrated yesterday with life. I am forgetting things more than normal. I am tired. I am dreading next week. Lord, I just feel like running away. But what I need to remember is I need to run to You for whatever I need. Right now I feel like I just need some peace from this chaos. I don't know what Your plan is but I do know You are with me. Enable me to stay focused on You. I pray You will bless me with exactly what I need to not only get through these days but most importantly to be a blessing to You and others through them. Fill me to overflowing with more of You and less of me. The desire of my heart is for Your will. Thank You for the time with Ben, Emily and the grand babies Saturday. What a blessing! Thank You for the physical energy to be able to spend time with them even though I was wiped out afterwards. Lord, continue to bless me in abundance. I know some would think that is a selfish way to pray but I know it is the desire of Your heart. I want to be like Jacob who held on for his blessing. Whatever and however long it takes to receive the blessing You have in store for me through this chaos...I will wait. But I also pray for open eyes to blessings along the way. I pray for an openness to whatever You have for me. Thank You Jesus for being My Blessing. Amen.
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