Matthew 19:26 - "What A Savior"

The Lord woke me up in the middle of the night singing Laura Story's "What A Savior" and again when I woke this morning. He also put an urgency in my heart to pray for one who is finding solace in alcohol instead of Jesus as they deal with anxiety. Their family is being effected tremendously and are drained by all that continues to go on and on. The chorus to this song speaks volumes...

Jesus You are stronger 
More than any other 
Hallelujah what a savior 
Jesus You are higher 
My soul´s deepest desire 
Hallelujah You are savior 

Yes! He is stronger than anxiety! He is stronger than loneliness! He is stronger than cancer! He is stronger than anything life throws are way. The key is to accept Him and allow Him to work in and through us. Addiction is not an easy thing to overcome but Jesus tells us in Matthew 19:26, "With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible." In this particular scripture He was in a conversation with His disciples about who would be able to get to heaven. He pointed out to them that nothing is impossible with God. That is something we all need to remember. The addiction we face each and every day whether it be ours or a loved one's...the health issues we are dealing with...the broken relationships...the death or impending death of a loved one...NOTHING is impossible when we give it to the Lord. 

This morning I was thinking about the book I am reading "All In" by Mark Batterson. He tells us in order to live the life the Lord wants of us we first must surrender 'our Isaac'. Sometimes 'our Isaac' is whatever we find our identity or security in. We must get to the point of having our identity/security in the cross of Jesus. We have to lay it on the altar in order to have the faith He desires of us. It is not always a 'bad' thing that can be 'our Isaac' because we, as believers, are given gifts to be used for His glory that can be 'our Isaac' when we allow them to be greater than Him. We cannot rely on the gifts He gives us to shape us but rather need to realize that we must rely on Him to shape us through the use of those gifts. I have seen people who He gifts with a beautiful voice and they use it for His glory only to get caught up in the 'me' part of it. The enemy finds a foothold and plays havoc in their lives. That is so sad because then people see the humanness of a believer get in the way of the spiritual aspect of their life. In this book it asks a few questions on this subject:

What are your greatest God-given gifts?
What are your most significant God-ordained opportunities?
What God-sized dreams has the Holy Spirit conceived in your spirit?
That's your Isaac.

Once again, I go back to this song from this morning and I pray the one who is dealing with anxiety and turned to alcohol would get to the place of being able to sing...

You are the shepherd king 
You lead us by still waters 
Hallelujah You are savior 

You are my only hope 
Your kindness is my friend 
In Your presence You restore us 

Dear Jesus, 
I pray for this one's soul. I pray someone will say or do something to bring them into relationship with You before it's too late. I pray for their family to draw strength from You each and every day. I pray for protection over them. I pray for Your love to encompass them in such a way that there is no doubt You are there with them. Lord, I also pray for those who are going through some tough days with their health or the health of their loved one. I pray You will be so real to them today as they sit at the hospital or nursing home. Put someone before them that will say something to draw them to You. Father, may You bring to my mind anything that is an Isaac in my life. Lord, thank You for the opportunity to be You to others yesterday. Thank You for my husband who loves me so much to grant me the desire of my heart to go to be with families. Thank You for Pam who brought Momma to see me. Thank You for the time of fellowship with my church family. Oh my do You ever bless me in abundance and for that I am so grateful. Fill me to overflowing so people will see You in me. Thank You Jesus for being My Savior! Amen.

John 10:3 - "He Knows My Name"

It is no wonder the Lord woke me up singing "He Knows My Name" this morning. There are so many people who are hurting so greatly for their loved ones. They need the reminder that...

He knows my name
He knows my every thought
He sees each tear that falls
And hears me when I call

The Lord is there for us, no matter what trials we go through on this earth. He hears us when we call upon Him for strength. He knows what we need before we even know ourselves. He heard the words out of my mouth this week, "I hate cancer." He knows how I hurt for those who are hurting. He gave me a heart of compassion for people that goes so deep. He gave me a purpose on this earth to be Him to others, especially the hurting. My whelm of influence for Him is greater than I ever imagined possible, especially when at this time I can't get in the car and go see people. I praise Him for that but oh how I wish I didn't have so many people that were hurting so greatly.

This morning I am praying for the ones...

• waiting on test results that appear to be cancer
• struggling with decisions with the health of a loved one
• watching their mother in her last days
• with turmoil in their family while dealing with the health of a loved one
• who are far away physically yet their heart is here with their loved one
• with severe health issues

Jesus said of a good shepherd, "The sheep hear his voice; and he calleth his own sheep by name, and leadeth them out." Then he told the disciples, "I am the Good Shepherd, and know my sheep, and am known of mine," (John 10:3).

He knows my name...woo hoo! I am His and He is mine...woo hoo! When I am in need of His strength, I have it...woo hoo! I pray those going through tough times will know this too.

Dear Jesus,

These are the cries of my heart. Touch each person in a mighty way. Meet their spiritual needs most of all but Father, touch all of their being. Lord, use me to be a vessel of life to these ones who are watching their loved one in what appears to be their last days. Thank You for being Jesus to me when I was going through my Daddy's death. Be so real to these ones who need Your strength. More of You and less of me, Lord. Fill me to overflowing. Thank You Jesus for being My Father. Amen.

I John 4:7-21 - "Evidence"

7 Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. 8 Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love. 9 This is how God showed his love among us: He sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him.10 This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins. 11 Dear friends, since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. 12 No one has ever seen God;but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us. 13 This is how we know that we live in him and he in us: He has given us of his Spirit. 14 And we have seen and testify that the Father has sent his Son to be the Savior of the world. 15 If anyone acknowledges that Jesus is the Son of God, God lives in them and they in God. 16 And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in them. 17 This is how love is made completeamong us so that we will have confidence on the day of judgment: In this world we are like Jesus. 18 There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. 19 We love because he first loved us. 20 Whoever claims to love God yet hates a brother or sister is a liar. For whoever does not love their brother and sister, whom they have seen, cannot love God, whom they have not seen. 21 And he has given us this command: Anyone who loves God must also love their brother and sister. I John 4

What a blessing to be encouraged by the Lord! These last few days have been ones where I know the enemy has tried so hard to steal my joy. But I am determined he will not be successful! Since I can't be out and about unless my hubby drives me to wherever I want to go it is so, so hard for me. You just don't realize what you have until you don't have it. If I were a rich woman, I would hire me a driver! But since I am not I asked the Lord to open my eyes up for opportunities to be Him to others even from the comfort of my own home. He reminded me yesterday that I am an encouragement to those who read what I write, to those I let know I am praying for them, and to those I talk to. For that, I am grateful. I sure don't want to waste any time on this earth when I can be a blessing to others. I remember not too long ago saying something about however the Lord wants to use me is fine by me. At that time, I was functioning normally...well, at least as normal as I could. Now here I am with non-functioning legs yet I know the Lord is going to use me each and every day. It doesn't surprise me that He woke me up to Citizen's Way "Evidence" this morning...

Mercy and grace and compassion
They’re only words without action

I need hands that are open
Reaching out for broken hearts
‘Cause that’s the only way this world
Would ever know who You are
Love is the evidence
Love is the evidence
His love flowing in and through me is the only way I can start each day with the knowledge I can still be a vessel for Him even in my current situation. That love is flowing through my body in such a way there is no way it can't ooze out. Woo hoo! I get the Holy Spirit goosebumps just thinking about it! I have purpose in my life. That purpose didn't stop when my legs stopped functioning. Woo hoo! 

This morning I am praying for so many who are going through difficult times. I pray they will find hope in Him as they go through these battles on this earth. I pray they will know these trials are only temporary and someday will be over when we live for Him on this earth which will take us to eternal life with Him in heaven. Praying for...

• the family with Momma in the hospital
• the family with Momma in Hospice
• the family with another family member given a bad diagnosis
• the families who continue to mourn the loss of their loved one
• the one who started on a new medication
• the one suffering with severe fibro pain
• the two with issues with their employers
• the one who is turning to alcohol

Dear Jesus,

Thank You for encouraging me to "keep on keepin' on" and to not allow the enemy to steal my joy. Father, You are my Joy so there is no way the enemy can steal You from me. Lord, today is a new day. Use me in whatever way You so desire. I pray for opportunities to share Your love with others. Lord, thank You for the book I started yesterday called "All In" and for the way You are speaking to me through it. I can hardly wait to get started reading this morning. Father, fill me with more of You and less of me...ooze out of me...let people see You when they see me. Thank You Jesus for being My Joy! Amen.

Psalm 43 - "Have Everything"

This morning the Lord woke me up to the song "Have Everything" but I could only remember the very last part.

Every day
I'm gonna wake up, Gonna wake up
Wake up and say
You can have me, have everything

I started thinking about what He wanted me to get from this song. I asked the Lord for scripture to read and He said, "Psalm 43." I went to Psalm 43 and was blown away once again with how the Lord speaks...

1 Vindicate me, my God, and plead my cause against an unfaithful nation.
Rescue me from those who are deceitful and wicked.
2 You are God my stronghold. Why have you rejected me? Why must I go about mourning, oppressed by the enemy?
3 Send me your light and your faithful care, let them lead me; let them bring me to your holy mountain, to the place where you dwell.
4 Then I will go to the altar of God, to God, my joy and my delight.
I will praise you with the lyre, O God, my God.

5 Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.

In Psalm 43 David had sinned and was looking for the Lord for hope. The Lord reminded me that I need to continue to look to Him for hope. He reminded me that He is my Stronghold. As I read two, I thought about if I am rejecting God through this issue with my legs. I don't believe I am but I have to wonder if I am not doing something He desires of me. Matthew Henry writes, 

"Let us pray earnestly, that the Lord would send forth the truth of his word, and the light of his Spirit, to guide us into the way of holiness, peace, and salvation. The desire of the Christian, like that of the prophet in distress, is to be saved from sin as well as sorrow; to be taught in the way of righteousness by the light of heavenly wisdom, shining in Jesus Christ, and to be led by this light and truth to the New Jerusalem."

Dear Jesus,
Thank You for these things to ponder this morning. Father, I am so thankful You are my Hope in the midst of this storm. I am grateful for the way You speak to me. Lord, I must admit that it gets pretty lonely not being able to be out and about. But Father would You please give me direction on how I can be You to others even when I can't leave my house? Fill me to overflowing with more of You so that I can do what You desire of me. Right now I feel like I don't much to give yet I need to remember that You are in control of this chaos. You know what is entailed in my "everything"...You know what I can and can't do...You know. Plain and simple. I don't understand it but You do. That is all that matters. So this morning I am singing...
Every day
I'm gonna wake up, Gonna wake up
Wake up and say
You can have me, have everything
Lord, thank You for being My Hope and My Stronghold. Amen.

Romans 12:12 - "God Is Able"

The first thing that came to my mind this morning was, "I'm sorry Lord for falling apart yesterday." His response was, "It is OK, Daughter. But you must remember I am in control of the chaos." Immediately He brought the words to "God Is Able" to my mind...

In His name, we overcome
For the Lord, our God is able

God is with us
God is on our side
He will make a way

Far above all we know
Far above all we hope
He has done great things

I was thinking about the word overcome and looked up the definition...

v. verb 

• 1. To defeat (another) in competition or conflict. overcame the opposing team in the last quarter.
• 2. To deal with successfully; prevail over; surmount. tried to overcome the obstacles of poverty.
• 3. To overpower, as with emotion; affect deeply. was overcome with grief.

As I think about it, when we overcome something it doesn't necessarily mean it goes away. It can mean just that we get a handle on it. "In His name, we overcome..." That is a pretty strong statement. We must call upon the Lord in order to get through each and every day of life in the manner He desires of us. "He is able" to do anything and everything. He may chose to not take us out of the chaos we are going through in order for us to grow into Him in a deeper faith. Turmoil in life equals us making the choice of walking away from Him or pressing into Him.

Yesterday was such a frustrating day in so many ways. I don't want for today to be the same. I don't want to have my new normal to be filled with tears. How can I make sure that doesn't happen? By pressing into Him and calling upon His name. He reminded me this morning of Romans 12:12...

Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.

Joyful in hope..."He will go before...He will never leave us"

Patient in affliction..."He has open arms...He will never fail us"

Faithful in prayer..."For the Lord, our God is able"

Dear Jesus,

Thank You for the reminders today of Your love for me. Thank You for encouraging me through Your Word and through this song. Lord, You impressed upon me this morning to pray for...

the family with the loved one that Hospice has been called in for...

the family with their Momma taken to the hospital last night...

the family with their loved one in serious condition and transferred to OSU...

the families with the loss of loved ones these last few months...

the one having a procedure this morning...

Lord, I pray each of these ones will rely on Your strength to get through the tough days. I pray they will be able to say Romans 12:12 and mean it. I also pray I will hold Romans 12:12 close in my heart. Father, I know that if You choose to You could take away this chaos in my life. I also know You can use it to be glorified. Father, more of You and less of me is the desire of my heart. Thank You Jesus for being The One To Overcome. Amen.

Psalm 99 - "Hold Us Together"

This morning the Lord took me to Psalm 99 which reminds us to worship Him. It also is a reminder to continue to call upon Him because He will answer. As I read verse six about that I thought about how I have been calling on Him for healing in these legs. The healing hasn't happened but I will not quit asking. Yesterday I did a lot of thinking about what if this is my new normal. There will be a lot of adjustments if it is but at least if it is it isn't my sight that is gone. If I have to depend upon help with walking the rest of my life, I will adjust because the Lord is with me. It's kind of funny how He woke me up to Matt Maher's "Hold Us Together" this morning. The part that goes like this is what I must hold onto...

When you're on your knees then...

Love, will, hold us together
Make us a shelter
to weather the storm

And I'll, be, my brothers keeper
So the whole world will know
That we're not alone

This is the first, day of the rest of your life
This is the first, day of the rest of your life
'Cause even in the dark you can still see the light
It's gonna be alright, s'gonna be alright 

Yes, I can "...still see the light"! Woo hoo! God doesn't promise that life will be perfect. But He does promise that when we go through troubles on this earth He will give us peace. I have His peace in that whatever is ahead I know He is with me. The waiting on what will happen from this point on is the hardest for me. I think back on my diagnosis twenty-one years ago and how we were just happy to have a diagnosis after four months of testing. I remember Doc saying, "Well, now we know what we need to deal with and will do it." That is kind of where I am today. I just want to know if this is my new normal. If it is, then adjustments need made in life. This song reminds me God's love will get me through this. It also will be what I desire others to see in me as I "weather the storm" that is raging in my body. 

Another thing I thought about yesterday was the going deeper in my faith. Perhaps this flair-up is for that purpose. Maybe the Lord is using it to take me deeper. Maybe I didn't get all He was trying to get me to see in going deeper so He had to put this before me in order for me to grasp something. Maybe the desires of His heart are for me to go so deep that in my ordinary life I couldn't do it. Maybe He wants to empower me with His love in a whole new way...much deeper than ever before. Maybe, maybe, maybe...woo hoo! I get so excited to think about where He is taking me. It is kind of ironic that I say that when at this moment my legs can't carry me on their own. Let's see...my legs won't work on their own which means I have to have assistance. Maybe I was/am trying to be too independent and not relying enough on Him. Maybe that is the reason for this flair-up. Or maybe it is because someone else needs to see how I handle this time. 

I love the words of Matt Maher about this song: 

“To love is to risk and be promised extraordinary highs and lows; it will help you soar through the highs, and carry you through the lows, so you can help carry your neighbor through.”

As I go through this time, I pray the Lord will use His love to flow from me. I also pray His love will not just carry me through this time but I want to soar through it. I want others to see what I have in Him and have the desire of their heart to have it too. The desire of my heart is found in Matthew Henry's words:

"Our Prophet and High Priest, of infinitely greater dignity than Moses, Aaron, or Samuel, has received and declared to us the will of the Father. Let us not only exalt the Lord with our lips, but give him the throne in our heart; and while we worship him upon his mercy-seat, let us never forget that he is holy."

Dear Jesus,
Thank You for loving me so deeply. Thank You for reminding me this morning that "It's gonna be alright, s'gonna be alright." You are so awesome! Lord, deeper...deeper...take me deeper in relationship with You. Father, cleanse anything out of me that doesn't belong. I pray against depression having any part of me. Lord, use this time to be a beacon of light for others to see You in me. Fill me to overflowing with more of You and less of me. Father, today I sing "This is the first, day of the rest of your life" with the knowledge that my faith in You will take me wherever You lead me to. I know You are with me and will guide me. If not having full use of my legs will take me to where You want me to be, so be it. But I will say once again, Lord please heal me but only if it is Your plan do I want that to happen. I probably am not making sense but I just want to be where You want me to be. If that takes legs that don't function, so be it. Thank You Jesus for being My Encourager! Amen.

Psalm 44 - "I Am Not Alone"

"Psalm 44....read it, Daughter."
"I will later, Lord. I don't feel like it right now."
"Now, Daughter."

Yes, this is the conversation I had this morning with the Lord. I had decided my normal routine of being in His Word would be exchanged this morning for turning on the TV. Life is anything but normal right now. Thankfully the Lord shook some sense into me! It is amazing how Psalm 44 was exactly what I needed to read. It shouldn't surprise me though because the Lord already knows what is happening in my life and He already knows the outcome. This Psalm is one that shows how God's power in the past is what we need to hold onto during tough times. It is one to bring relief in our present state. It reminds us that the enemy does not have power against us. I like the words of Matthew Henry:

The believer must have times of temptation, affliction, and discouragement; the church must have seasons of persecution. At such times the people of God will be ready to fear that he has cast them off, and that his name and truth will be dishonoured. But they should look above the instruments of their trouble, to God, well knowing that their worst enemies have no power against them, but what is permitted from above.

It is imperative that when going through tough times that we do not allow any sin to creep into our lives. If we do, it will give the enemy an open door. As Matthew Henry says, "In afflictions, we must not seek relief by any sinful compliance; but should continually meditate on the truth, purity, and knowledge of our heart-searching God." Henry continues to say, "While our troubles do not drive us from our duty to God, we should not suffer them to drive us from our comfort in God." I need to ponder on that one for a bit. 

Once again I am reminded that the Lord is greater than anything that comes my way. I am reminded that He is My Healer. I am reminded that He is in control of this chaos. I can't see the outcome but I do know who holds it. The Lord also reminded me this morning that I cannot allow the enemy any foothold. I cannot allow him to bring on the feelings of being lonely or discouraged. I cannot allow him to steal my joy. I must remember that "I Am Not Alone"...the Lord has not left me...He is here for me to encourage me. That is pretty obvious this morning as He took me to Psalm 44. I believe He is warning me. He sees how the enemy is trying hard to get me. The Lord knows I needed reminded of His faithfulness to me.

Dear Jesus,
Thank You, thank You, thank You! You are so awesome! Lord, keep my faith strong during this time. Lead me to what You so desire of me. Bless me in abundance with Your healing touch. Father, I don't know that I will have contact with anyone today but if I do would You please fill me to overflowing with more of You and less of me so they will see You in me? Father, Your will be done in all that is going on... Thank You Jesus for being My Protector. Amen.

II Chronicles 20:15; Psalm 91:14-16; Psalm 23; John 10:3; Proverbs 31:25 - "He Knows My Name"

Yesterday the Lord encourage me with the reminder that this battle belongs to Him. I don't have to worry. I don't have to fret. I don't have to wonder what will happen from this point. He is in control. I am so grateful for the way He takes care of us in the midst of chaos. What I didn't know was that He was preparing me for another "bump in the road" on this journey. Actually, it isn't a "bump" but could probably be described as a "sinkhole." I cannot allow the enemy a foothold with this but oh my is it hard. I was grateful for the words to "He Knows My Name" this morning to encourage me...

I have a Maker
He formed my heart
Before even time began
My life was in his hands

I have a Father
He calls me His own
He'll never leave me
No matter where I go

[Chorus]
He knows my name
He knows my every thought
He sees each tear that falls
And He hears me when I call

I am reminded of Psalm 23 this morning. What a comfort in having the word picture of a shepherd caring for his sheep. Thinking of him calling out the names of his sheep and them coming to him is precious. That's how it is with the Lord. He is our Good Shepherd. He knows each of us by name. When He calls our name, we need to follow. John 10:3 reads, 

Jesus said of a good shepherd, "The sheep hear his voice; and he calleth his own sheep by name, and leadeth them out." Then he told the disciples, "I am the Good Shepherd, and know my sheep, and am known of mine," 

He knows my name...woo hoo! I am not just a number but I am special to Him. That gives me such joy and contentment. That reminds me that I am His and He is mine. It reminds me that He is always here for me. As I think of this "sinkhole" given to me yesterday I am weary. I don't even know what to think at this point. But I must trust the Lord and allow Him to be glorified through it. I must rely on Him for wisdom and direction. I must listen to His voice calling me and loving on me. His love will bathe me in exactly what I need. He will be My Protection.

When I saw this picture this morning, I thought about how hard it is to smile at the future right now. Then the Lord checked me and said, "Daughter, I am Your future. Why would you not smile?" Ooopppsss....sorry Lord! He is so right. No matter what the future holds, He is my strength. I am His, He is mine. He is My Strength. He is My Good Shepherd. "He hears me when I call" upon Him. He is hearing my cries right now. "He knows my every thought" so I don't even have to tell Him what I am thinking/feeling. 

Dear Jesus,

Thank You for these many reminders today of Your faithfulness to me. Thank You for loving on me in some mighty awesome ways. Lord, Your peace is what I need and I know it is there for me. Father, please keep my awareness up against attacks of the enemy. I can't allow him any foothold whatsoever. I pray for the one who I talked with yesterday who is going through a difficult storm in her life. May my words, prayers and anointing be so very real to her as she awaits her procedure. Lord, touch her not only physically but most importantly in a spiritual sense. Help her to know You are her future. Lord, use me today to be a beacon of light for You. Fill me to overflowing so others will see You in me. Put the smile on my face that is genuine and Lord, I pray You would remind me throughout this day that You are my future. You have everything under control. I don't know when You will reveal the purpose of all of this to me but that's OK. I am OK because You give me exactly what I need when I need it. Just when I think I am going to fall apart You strengthen me. Thank You Jesus for being My Future! Amen.

II Chronicles 20:15 - "Healer"; "Save My Life"

Last night as I went to bed I was feeling a bit discouraged. It ended up with Doc and I snapping at one another which only made things worse. As I started crying out to the Lord and asking Him for peace He brought Kari Jobe's song "Healer" to my mind. As I sang the words, I received peace and was able to fall asleep. 

You hold my every moment
You calm my raging seas
You walk with me through fire
And heal all my disease
I trust in You, I trust in You

I believe You're my healer
I believe You are all I need
I believe

And I believe You're my portion
I believe You're more than enough for me
Jesus You're all I need

I do believe all of these words. I also believe no matter what lies ahead He will be my strength to get me through. I just need reminded of the part of the song that goes...

Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible
Nothing is impossible for You
You hold my world in Your hands

He is the One who will be my strength....He is the One who is my strength...He is the One who will knock the enemy down when he comes trying to get me down...He is the One who will be glorified through this situation. I am standing on these promises from Him. I refuse to allow the enemy a foothold. The enemy will not take me into depression. The enemy will not be allowed to have a part of this situation. The Lord reminded me this morning that this is not my battle. He also reminded me that instead of seeing this MS flair-up as a battle I need to look at it as an opportunity for Him to be glorified through it. 

This morning when I woke up the words to Sidewalk Prophet's song "Save My Life" were in my mind. I couldn't remember all of them so looked them up and was perplexed as to why He brought it to me. I kept singing it and finally it hit me in the ending of the song. I don't need nor desire people to pity me for my situation. But I do need words of encouragement. I know that God is my Hope. I know I am not alone. But sometimes I just need reminded of that.

But I’ve got doubts and questions too
Behind this smile I’m really just like you
Afraid and tired and insecure

I don't know that I would say I am "afraid" in these days because the Lord has given me His peace. But I can say I am "tired" of going through the junk of my disease and Doc's health issues. If God is putting us through this stuff, to Him be the glory. If the enemy is causing it, shame on him. He will not win. The Lord is greater than him in every sense of the way. I praise the Lord for the trip to Israel we had but as I was thinking about it these last few days I started wondering if there were a deeper purpose in it than thought. I definitely know the Lord gave me a spiritual deepening through my experiences there. He cleansed my spirit by the place of Peter's reinstatement by the Sea of Galilee. He cleansed my soul by being re-baptized in the Jordan River by Doc. I was hoping and praying He would cleanse my body of anything that didn't belong in it while I was walking where He walked but that wasn't in His will. Last night as I prayed, I asked for Him to cleanse both my body and Doc's body of the diseases in it. I prayed for His will and asked Him to bless us either with a miraculous healing or through doctors and medicine. He reminded me His healing comes in His time.

If you look me right in the eye
Would you see the real me inside
Would you take the time to
Save my life
I am just like everyone
Jesus I need You, I need Your Love
To save my life
Another thing the Lord reminded me this morning is that it's ok to be independent but it's also ok to depend upon others. When we do so, they will be blessed through their obedience to Him. That is not one of the easiest things for me to do but if I truly want to be obedient to Him I must get better at allowing others to do for me when situations arise. I have a servant heart. In order for people to have the opportunity to share their servant heart I must allow them to do for me.

Dear Jesus,

Thank You for all of the reminders You gave me these last few hours. Thank You for the songs You brought to my mind. Lord, what a blessing You are to me. I praise You for the way You answered prayer for Alyssa yesterday with no broken bone. I praise You for the testimony given by the doctor and her family through the situation. Lord, today is a new day. It is Your day. Fill me to overflowing so people will see You in me. I pray for Your Words to be my words. I pray for Your Attitude to be my attitude. I pray for the Holy Spirit to flow from me in all I do. Father, I pray for the one who I will be meeting with today to receive Your direction from me. Give me Your wisdom in what they need to hear. Thank You Jesus for being My Healer. Amen.